We are all but specks in the Universe

Twelve months ago, on this day, I was saying goodbye to Texas and heading home after the most amazing adventure of my life.

Little did I know that I would also be saying goodbye to a friendship that had been the original motivation for the trip only a few short months later.

It has been a rollercoaster of a year, emotionally.  And I confess to wondering if perhaps when the magical date of the anniversary rolled around, there might have been a break in the silence.

Which then led me to wonder if that was what I really wanted.

I don’t know.  I am still a little confused as to what I did that was so terrible that led to me being “ghosted” but in the end, perhaps I am better off and it is his loss as we all know that I am pretty bloody awesome (and so humble about it too)

I do know that when you are standing on the edge of a cliff with the immense expanse of the southern ocean in front of you,  you gain a much better perspective of what is really important.  As massive waves crash on rocks formed from volcanoes millions of years ago, you realise just how precious and fragile life is, how we need to embrace the positive, accept that the past has happened, and it is better to look forward instead of back. (especially when walking on the edge of a cliff)

If you look closely, very closely, at this photo, you will see what I mean.  Hubby is in there somewhere.  A tiny speck, dwarfed by mother nature’s magnificence.


This holiday we have just taken is about as different from the USA trip as you can imagine.

Instead of towering buildings, it was immense cliffs and glorious coastlines.


Instead of fancy hotels, it was a  shack right on the beach, where we could watch the sunlight play on gentle waves and the only sounds were of seabirds and hubby gently snoring as he napped on the couch.

Bitumen roads were traded for dirt and rock tracks, pavements for incredibly white sandy beaches and we could go for hours without seeing another human being at even the most popular of tourist destinations.


There was no squirrels, but we saw dozens of emu with chicks, lizards including a beautiful goanna and of course kangaroo.

For this burnt out city girl, it was as close to paradise as you can get.

I took my paints.  I had ideas of placing the easel on the beach and painting something fabulous “en plein air”.

Lets just say it was a learning experience.

I learned that acrylic paints dry much too quickly in a sea breeze.  I learned just how hard it is to keep within a frame without some sort of viewfinder to assist.

I learned that fly repellent is pretty much useless against sticky little bush flies determined to get in your eyes, nose and mouth.

And I learned that flies do not understand (or simply choose to ignore) ” Fuck OFF you little mongrel bastards” said with passion and much waving of hands.

Flies also become “walks” after landing in bright yellow paint.

But despite not creating a masterpiece while away, I have come home with so many “potential painting”  ideas and plenty of inspiration to last me a while.

Like this guy.  Painted in the comfort of my studio.


Before I finish this post I just want to say a bit of a thankyou to my dear blogger friend Pickelope.  As I said in the start of the post, it was a bit of a week of mixed emotions and to be the subject of such a beautiful blog post, was incredibly uplifting.  You can read what he had to say here – A tribute to you.

With beautiful friends like him and all the rest of you, I am truly blessed (even if some people think I am crazy)

There are a few more holiday pics on my insta – link on the side bar.  Time for me now to finish this off.  The sun is out and I still have a few more days of holiday left to enjoy.

With smiles and hugs


5 thoughts on “We are all but specks in the Universe

  1. cwmartin13

    It’s not a good thing when a friendship breaks up. I had one explode right on my Time Machine post a couple weeks back, over the stupidest thing. And that was only a casual friendship. Sucks worse when you don’t know for sure what you did- or can’t conceive why it was so bad. Meh. Screw ’em, pour a glass and move on. The world will keep turning, and so will we.

  2. Now who’s trying to make who cry? I’m sorry to hear about the loss of your friendship, it’s always sad when you realize another friend has drifted off into the abyss of their own lives and strange twisted interpretations of innocuous interactions.
    Are you SURE that flies don’t understand “fuck off” or they’re willfully ignoring the command? OR, maybe we as a species aren’t being consistent enough with our command and they aren’t getting it. I don’t care what language it’s in, but if we all as a single human unit all said the same version of “fuck off” in the same language, in the same cadence, we could get the flies to understand. (Isn’t it weird what parts of a post people will latch on to? It’s fun.)
    I loved the search for your your Hubby in that picture. Pretty sure I found him, but a great illustration of what you were talking about. Hard to not get lost, staring at the weeds and missing the beauty of all the flowers around you.

  3. Liz Powley

    Now that is my kind of holiday 😀 No need for big cities, gimme a coastline, some rocks, sand and wildlife and I’m lovin’ it.

    Bummer for the friendship 😦 I’ve lost friendships (apparently friends don’t like me ignoring them all the time, who’d think? :D) It sucks big time. A lot of emphasis is placed on romantic breakups in our society, but I have to say that platonic friendship breakups can be just as painful and take years to heal, if at all. ::hugs:: I’m resigned to see friends as boats that pass in the mist….sometimes the boats come together and travel side by side for awhile, sometimes they drift off into the mist. Other boats wander in and out. Sometimes we know why, sometimes not.


    Best wishes,

  4. What a fabulous place to be one with the universe. There’s nothing like it and I’m so glad you and hubby got away to enjoy yourselves and decompress from the world. We need it every so often. As for friendships…they do come and go. You are pretty awesome and that’s all anyone needs to know about you if they’re sincere. Anyone else is just pretending. Hugs and love sweet lady! XX

  5. I’m really sorry to hear about the end that friendship. Getting out of the city is healthy for mind, body, and spirit. We all really need to do that once in a while. It looks like you went to an amazing place and enjoyed it.

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